Ok... I will start off by saying that I am not a Nazi, I am not a practicing jew but have Jewish ancestry.

I was recently surfing the net and came across a webiste featuring Jewish artists and their contributions to the art world etc. I found the most kick butt artist named Ruth Weisberg. Her art O_O is omg worthy, it's awe inspireing, she has a verry captivating style, and works with various different mediums, and her paintings are so realistic that I actualy thought they were photographs for a while. And as I am wanton to do (goddamn me) when ever I dip my toes into any thing jewish in nature I get this minor compultion to reserch it's counterpart in Nazism. This is a little sick I know, but due to the tie that they have I feel a little obligated to, just to see their differences, or simliarities etc.
Here's where the creepy part begins for me.
Ok, I hate Adolf Hitler. Alot.
I hate Nazi's. Alot.
But recently ( I blame my sister {more on that later) I have developed a curiosity about the thought processes behind Nazism, and WTF was wrong with Hitler. This stemmed from my christmas present from my sister the producers, it's a Mel Brooks movie featuring a mini-musical called 'Springtime for Hitler'. After several days of having this song stuck in my head I decided to do some reserch on Hitler. I didn't like what I found, but it was... grotesquely fascinating. I read some of the pages of Eva Braun's diary ( and WTF that girl was twisted), and checked out some sites whith biographies of Hitler. I knew he was a painter (from my visit to the Holocust Museum in DC) but I had never seen any of his paintings. Back to my rant, I googled 'Adolf Hitler / Artist' and got to see some of his paintings. After seeing the beautiful horror that is "Mother Mary with the Holy Child Jesus Christ" featuring an Arrian Jesus (the undertones of which make me want run away shrieking) I discovered that I liked alot of his work.
I am curious as to weather this makes me a bad person, or some one who can appricate a work of art more deeply.
By acnologing the fact that the artist was really fucked up but not taking it out on the work it's self, does that make me better able to appricate the art it's self? or does it mean that by not taking into consideration the fact that I enjoy the works of a mass murdering fuck head that I am a bad person who disregards her heritage due to her belief's about creative expression and the artisc comunity.
But I have relitaves who paint, who I really dislike, but I love their work... but that's really different.
I dont' know, but regardless as to who created it, I think I'll just enjoy the art that I enjoy regardless as to politics, and just appricate art for what it is... Art.

Ok, allow me to start off by saying that I have Jewish ancestry though I myself am not a practicing jew.

Ok, before you start to think that I am sick and suicidal... I'm not or maybe I am (no just read it)...
I have registered an account on [link] where I can get killed. In a book. I know I've lost you, but that is super cool! I could be a courps! in a book! That... Is... So... Freekin'...Cool...I wanna get killed but the problem is that this book is premering on the 31st... but it's still in progress and so I am hopeing that I get killed on octobe 31st ^^ or maybe in a later episode or in future... I WANNA DIE!!
DISCLAIMER: I am not insane or suicidal, I just wanna die in a book. Kudos to my friend ::darthdot::

I have no idea what so ever what I am doing with my life.
First I wanted to do somthing in acting... Theater, movie, street preformer, what ever. I loved acting it was my passion.
Then I wanted to sell sex toys, I learned about the business, the different materials, shapes, history, blah blah blah.
Then I wanted to be a sexual theripist... Same senario.
Then a tattoo artist.
Then an archelogist.
T_T as we beging to look at the pattern of this I find somthing I like, reserch it learn all I can find out about it... and then I loose interest. This is a problem... I am going to be home schooled for the last 1 1/2 years of my school education and I am getting a job at the local coffee joint next year... around say febuary... But I am afraid that I will end up staying there for the rest of my life. I dont' know what I want to go to college for, or do for a job, I know I want to travel... That's it. I don't know how I will get the money for this, or if I am going to rent an apartment in a couple years, I don't even know if I am passing all my classes. All I know is that I am behind in my school work, I need a job, and I dont' know what I am going to do with my life and the thought of that sacares the hell out of me.
I am confused, and uncertian and I... want... my... mommy...
I am almost 16 years old and the only thing that that has given me for life experience is a complex about the human mind and a dependance on my mother.
Everyone is telling me that I'll figure it out and I'll find a job I like and it will probably change many times but eventualy I will fined somthing that 'makes my heart sing' and I will never want to do anything else. T_T... Ok *she said sacrasticly*. I just wish that I could figure out how to DO just that, and on top of that they expect us to find love and continue the human species. T_T not f**kin' likely! I am just really confused and if any one has any sage like advice for me I would really appricate it because I am loosing my bloody mind >_O and everything is dirveign me insane... I don't know how to deal with... things any more, and it's got me down. My salvation: Poptarts and the prospect of seeing my best frined

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My body, start at neck and shoulders...

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Brown, it says Atwoods on the front


3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Besides my mom? No... not even if you payed me... well maybe if you payed me

4. Do you plan outfits?
Usually, but not on the weekends

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Slightly annoyed, useless, and bloated

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
... My mom

8. Person before that?
I choose not to discuss it

10. What are you craving right now?
Bread, Pizza with chocolate on it, frosted cherio's... Recies... all the basic white trash food that my freekin' diet won't permit me to eat.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
" What is this"
"Cabbage,"
"Cabbage? That's your character? You'll walk in there a big 6'ft tall cabbage guy"

12. Do you make prank calls?
No, I suck at it

13. Ever hooked up with some one out of state?
No

14. Do you sleep with any stuff animals?
No, I hate the teady bear I got when my house burned down I feel like I am cheating on Tiki (my dead panda)

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
Doubtful

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Yes, just out of sheer boredom

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both, depending on who I am around

18. Do you like anyone right now?
I have crushes on various TV/Movie characters, but no one in real life because sadly no one is even close to hot enough.

19. What do you think of crickets?
I frickin' love crickets! they are good luck ^^

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Weird Ale, Kid Rock... I think I've met some one else but they weren't popular enough to remember.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yes, but only with peanuts

22. What are you listening to right now?
The dialoug of No Reservations

25. Would you go sky diving?
Hells yeah!

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Yes, if only so I could poison him while his back was turned...

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
No...>>. <<. Yes


28. Is there anything sparkly on you?
Yes, my mood ring that my two best friends have matches of

30. Do you rent movies often?
No

31. Who sits behind you in your math class?
A girl who's name I don't know

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
Yes

35. Who are you going to be with tonight??
My mom, my step-dad, my computer, my step-sister...

36. Brown or white egg?
No preference... I just dont' care enough

38. Ever been on a train?
Yes, and by Gods it's fun!

39. Ever told someone you loved them?
Twice (not including family)

40. Do you have a cell phone?
Yes

41. Are you a virgin?
Wow... that's really personal

42. Any kids?
Nada

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Probably college type stuff...

44. Ever had cream puffs?
YES and they are so good!!!

45. Ever had Breaded Shrimp?
Yes

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
No, and I never want to

47. What was the last question you asked?
I don't remember, I think my mom was trying to teach me how to say "one beer please" in spanish and I asked her to repeat it.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Fohn Morr... I don't remember the ambum name.

49. What is/was your bus number for school?
I've only ever ridden a bus to school for a year and it was un- numbered

51. Is your hair curly?
Wavy-ish

52. Last time you cried?
... I think the first day school started just because I was frustrated with people nagging at me for mistakes I've made and already been nagged at for.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
Yes

54. Ever walked UP a wall?
Not today ?_? I've climbed a wall...

55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun?
T_T I dont' even know what that is

56. Favorite time of the year?
Fall.

57. What's your favorite number?
7, 13, & 17, I can't have just one.

58. Favorite colours?
Black, Red, Green, Blue, and Purple.

59. Do you have any piercings?
5 in my ears

60. Do you have any tattoos?
In a month!

61.Who was the last person you held hands with?
My mom

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
I don't own a bloody TV

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
My living room

64. Why was your default picture taken?
I had just acquired a really cool bruise and wanted to doccument it.

65. Do you like your life right now?
Not really, but I survive.

66. How do you feel about 'love'?
I dont' believe in love, I've seen too many relationships that I thought would last forever break up as well as too many couples stay together because it's easy or convienient and it's broken my heart.

67. What is your favorite animal?
Platypus.

69. Do you have good vision?
I need reeding glasses, but asside from that it's good.

70. Can you hula hoop?
Not even a little.

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
No T_T

72. Do you have a job?
Sadly no, I need one

74. What are you wearing?
White and gray socks
Really un-flattering blue genes
Black stained long sleve T-shirt
(It's my weekend wear)

75. What does your hair look like?
I usualy wear it in a pony tail (and becacuse it's short it looks like Anastasti's in the cartoon movie), and when it is down its all the same length and comes to my jaw line.

76. Ever climbed out a window?
Yes

77. Can you handle the truth?
Not usualy, I don't handle things verry well
But can -you- handle the truth?
YOUCAN'THANDLETHETRUTH!!! XP (thanks Molly )

78. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Cleopatra and a book about how to get a tattoo you will appricate

79. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not often, I try to call my Lydja at least once a week if I havent' been able to IM her lately, and I usually text Sarah... but besides them I don't really like to talk to many people.

80. What's the longest you talked to someone on the phone?
Afew hours with one to two hang ups and re-calls.

81. Do you hate/dislike more than 3 people?
Yes

83. Are you sarcastic?
Noooo, not at aaall

84. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes, and I wish I would have done it more often.

85. Do looks matter?
To me... Yes because I'm a sucker for a pretty face.

86. Do you use chapstick?
Usually

87. Are you too forgiving?
My gma thinks so, but others think I am jaded and cynical

88. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
I used to

89. Do you own a gun?
No, I own a bow and arrow's, and I want a sword, throwing daggers, a cross bow, and a battel axe but I plan on getting those on future holidays/birthdays.

90. Where are you located?
My living room (I can hear my sister and her damn boyfriend fighting, it's really annoying)

91. Have you ever been in a castle?
Yes, many infact

92. Do you like your hair?
Usually.

93. Do you like yourself?
No, I am not a likeable individual or a good person.

95. Question deleted.
??

96. When was the last time you talked on aim?
This morning

97. Random statement: Tell me your cup size?
34 DD

99. What are you doing today?
Nothing, eating, drinking, shooting arrows... nothing

100. I tag:
Whoever wants to steal...